Pocketful of Deliberate Accident.

2011 New Year is Coming!

2010-12-25T20:57:00.000-08:00

It has been a while since the last time I've blogged. Here we go!

So, the funny thing about December is we celebrated our anniversary by not celebrating it. LOL. We just realized on 16th Dec that we didn't celebrate our anniversary at all. Well we were both on tight budget anyway. Its so funny! Funny right? Right? err... okay moving on!

My baby is going to celebrate New Year with me!! Wohoo!! It's gonna be the awesomest New Year ever!! Can't wait.... Seriously... We're gonna have a great dinner and watch fireworks. Only both of us and us alone. By the time the clock reaches 12, it's the fresh beginning of something new. I haven't really think of my New Year resolution yet.

Btw, my baby is in her hometown now. She'll be back tomorrow. I'm so excited and I misses her so so much. Can't wait to spend more quality time with you. I love you Honey Bee...

Merry X-mas to you!

Truthfully, Taro.

2010-12-05T11:54:00.000-08:00

it's been too long

2010-12-05T11:40:00.000-08:00

wow, it's almost the end of 2010!

haven't been updating much, life is passing by really quickly and as procrastinators extraordinaire the blog is suffering serious consequences...

ANYWAY, so many things have happened...stories of old and new, feelings involved, emotional torment & pleasure, physical altercations (almost all my doings - i need anger management). this relationship is heading into snooze-ville and i'm afraid if we don't start being spontaneous like before, outgoing like we used to...we might just get bored and not bother anymore...

heading into the 10th month anniv this 15th and not sure what to do. financially, we both can't afford it but at the same time we've never really done anything nice for anniv...i suppose when the 1st year anniv comes along we HAVE to do something, right? it's totally a reason to celebrate >.<>

will be posting pictures soon...

-cabbit

6/12/10

3:55am

who knew...

2010-06-13T11:10:00.000-07:00

it seems like the Melaka trip was ages ago but i can still recall it clearly...

8 months later we're together...and yet the feeling is starting to slip away...

gone were the laughter that filled our days, now it's just continuous arguments about petty things that in the end we don't remember...

can we be more? do we have the strength to soldier on?

i sit here writing this feeling more desolate by the minute as i think and remember our past and present, the way it was and the way it is, praying a hopeful prayer that the dissatisfaction will go away and our lives back to normal...

as i looked at your pictures i catch a glimpse of how it used to be for you, the yesteryear of heartfelt memories and treasures none can ever replace...

and the numb feeling of irrationality arises from within causing an embarrassment, i wasn't part of it, therefore i shouldn't be bothered by such trivial emotions...

yet it still lingers, the green monster, as a reminder of how i can't fulfill your days now compared to those you had before...

and you can see my handicap, the lack of resource, the lack of...everything...

i shall remain hopeful that disadvantages will once, prove helpful and optimistic rather than hindrance, as i cannot bear to move on without you by my side...

cabbit,

14/6/2010

2:31am

NOM NOM says

2010-02-26T10:59:00.000-08:00

I love my baby so much. Shes going on a trip to Port Dickson today. I'm sure she'll have a lot of fun with old and new friends. We hang out with each other every single day these past few weeks and i just want my baby to have fun tomorrow. I'm expecting some oleh2 from her too. haha. just kidding. Im missing my baby so much at the moment. She was a bit moody tonight cuz i kept on falling asleep. IM SO SO SO SO SO SORRY from the bottom of my heart, HONEY BEE! You know I dont wanna do anything that can hurt your feelings. I know you just wanna talk to me but I was so tired (not a good excuse..i know), if theres anything i could do to make it up to you, I would glad to do it with open heart. I will make something to cheer you up again. I promise. :)

Oh oh, one more thing, BABY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! !! ! !! !!! !

p/s:
-More hot make out please.
-Hope you like the picture i edited.
-Take care of yourself in the bus and at the beach.

Cheers, TARO.

it's been awhile

2010-02-25T22:20:00.000-08:00

since i came back, we haven't had time to post anything new :) been spending the last 10 days with honey bee (who has a new name, Nom Nom) in Bangi, Putrajaya, Sunway and Cyberjaya...we've been travelling a lot since he drives now, petrol money also running like water, LOL :D it's ok, at least we get to spend time together...nyehehehehe~~

places we have been to:-
1. Taman Tasik Perdana, Putrajaya
2. Wetlands Park, Putrajaya
3. Botanical Gardens, Putrajaya
4. Alamanda, Putrajaya
5. MMU, Cyberjaya
6. The Curve, Mutiara Damansara
7. IKEA, Mutiara Damansara
8. One Utama, Damansara Utama
9. Sunway Pyramid, Bandar Sunway

then there's my apartment and his house, lol...

classes are starting on monday, i'm feeling a bit sad coz nom nom won't be joining Taylor's this semester :( i'm trying to stay positive but this is going to be a long-distance relationship...sort of >.< he might be heading back to jakarta for a few weeks and visit his family there, his mum wants to book flight for this monday =.= i know that once classes start, our time will be limited to Friday afternoons, Saturdays and Sundays...which sucks because we're so used to seeing each other every day *help! T.T*

i will be going to Port Dickson for class orientation tomorrow, wish nom nom was going as well...sigh...no matter, i am still excited for the trip...i've never been to Port Dickson (or Langkawi or Tioman or Redang) and looks like in April a mini trip to one of the islands must be organized! hehehehe...

okies, enough ranting from me...just a short update for now :D will be posting up pictures with honey bee really soon, once i've got them edited and cool looking (yes, the L-E-M-A-U-ness is here to stay)...HONEY BEE'S PICKING ME UP IN 30 MINUTES, YAY!!!!

love,
cabbit

we cool like that

2010-02-24T22:16:00.000-08:00

yeah, you know we are
>.<

love,
cabbit

and the cabbit returns...

2010-02-15T06:50:00.000-08:00

CABBIT IS BACK! IN KL! OMG ARE YOU EXCITED????

hehehehe...arrived at the airport around 4.45pm and reach home exactly an hour later...guess what? AUDREY, ILHAM & AFIQ WERE IN PYRAMID *big smiles* and they came to fetch me for dinner...ilham had to head home, though, and audrey was left to deal with the mushiness that is Taro & Cabbit >.<

anyway, 3 of us headed to One Utama for dinner and just walked around the place a bit. today is still a public holiday (Gong Xi Fa Cai maaaa...) so there was quite a big crowd at the mall :) no matter, we had a lot of fun still...taro got me a ring! i wanted this spiral ring from Central Market and he got something quite similar, coz the other shop was closed...*i still want the other ring, plan to go get it soon...LOL)

sent honey bee to the train station around 9.30pm and talked for a bit...he managed to get a connecting train to seremban with ONE MINUTE to spare *such a lucky hamster today, huh?* he is still in the train now, cabbit is waiting patiently for him to get back so we can talk...hehehe...

till next time~

love,
cabbit

Blind Love.

2010-02-14T18:33:00.000-08:00

Once there was a blind girl. Everyone hated her except her boyfriend. She always told him, "If I was able to see, I would have married you". One day all of a sudden, someone donated a pair of eyes to the girl. She opened her eyes just to find that her boyfriend was ALSO BLIND! The Boy then asked her, "Will You Marry Me Now?". The girl ...REJECTED! The Boy just turned, began to walk away & said in a low voice, "Please take care of my eyes".

Happy Valentines Day, Sayang.

2010-02-13T13:21:00.000-08:00

If I never met you, I wouldn't like you.

If I didn't like you I wouldn't love you.

If I didn't love you I wouldn't miss you.

But I did, I do and I always will

If loving you is wrong, then I don't want to be right!

If loving you is a crime. I'd like to be jailed for my whole life, in your heart.

I love you. Like a fat kid loves cakes. *ERKK.. Diabetes!*

LOL.

Taro wrote this!

MAYBE...

2010-02-12T12:06:00.001-08:00

Maybe I should text you,
Maybe I should call you,
Maybe I shouldn't text you nor call,
Maybe I misses you so much,
Maybe I'm being all emotional,
Maybe I think too much,
Maybe I feel depressed,
Maybe I'm falling sick,
Maybe I'm bored and tired of my life,
Maybe I don't always get what I want,
Maybe I dont always get what I need,
Maybe I'm missing you like theres no tomorrow,
Maybe I'm just being moody,
Maybe I'm such an annoyance to you,
Maybe I'm too honest and dependent on you,
Maybe I trust you too much,
Maybe I love you so much,
Maybe I do.

MAYBE...

Maybe you didn't miss me,
Maybe you're really busy,
Maybe you miss me but you're too busy,
Maybe you take me easily,
Maybe you dont,
Maybe you take me seriously but you wanna slow things down,
Maybe you love me but you didn't show it,
Maybe you get angry with me sometime,
Maybe you're coming back so you're not worried of anything,
Maybe you prioritize ur friends more than me,
Maybe you're too sweet that I never ever wanna say goodbye,
Maybe you have trust in me,
Maybe you really want me,
Maybe you really loves me,
Maybe you do.

MAYBE...

Cheers, Taro

Posto! Posto!

2010-02-12T04:24:00.000-08:00

Hehehe. I was bored... ^.^

Cheers, Taro.

Valentines.

2010-02-11T01:33:00.000-08:00

I'd give my baby a bouquet of roses on the Valentines day. 11 are real and 1 is fake, and so I say, "I love you till the last one dies." ♥

TARO.

THE BIG 1-9!

2010-02-09T21:33:00.000-08:00

happy birthday to you,

wish i was there with you,

with everyone else around us,

happy birthday to you~

sorry i can't be there to celebrate your last year of 'teen-dom', honey bee :( but you know you're always in my heart and i will see you in 5 DAYS!!! *excited, yay~~* enjoy your day today, even if someone tries to spoil your mood just let them be, don't bother about what others say :D i love you tons, take care of yourself...

love,
cabbit

the birds and the bees

2010-02-08T09:17:00.000-08:00

why do we get jealous?

it's pointless and useless...kan kan kan!

buang masa

>.<

love,
cabbit

Beautiful between Disaster.

2010-02-07T00:47:00.000-08:00

Beautiful between Disaster.

The feeling is so unexplainable; it’s the result and consequence of the past which is non-regrettable. The thought of how things revolve and go against what we have planned and decided always there in this thick skull. The right to rebel is the pain to suffer. The aftermath of disaster is never beautiful. Your love is like a shield, a shield from sorrow and emptiness. Are we destined to be together? Is the world going against us or are we the one who is going against the universe? It’s not for us to answer. We’re/’ve been tested with all kind of challenge and problem. Karma- What goes up must come down, what goes around must come around. Maybe we’re at the lowest point of the wheel; maybe someday we’ll be at the top. Once we’re at that point, stop and see. Stop and see why we were at the bottom before. Thankfulness is everything. Everything is what we need. We need to be thankful because every time bad things happen to us, we manage to go slow and accept the way it is. Our love is sacred and we knew that it is not typical. We’re more than what people think of, you pull me up when I fall, you shelter me with you umbrella, it’s so beautiful and to protect this relationship is to sacrifice. Even though you’re far across the sea, I know that I will see you again someday. When the day comes, you should know that I will never let you go...

Sincerely, TARO.

6 o'clock in the morning...

2010-02-05T14:26:00.000-08:00

I saw a new girl sitting at the corner there in the design class. There’s something about her that made me want to say hello. I guess it was a bit hard since everyone tried to pull her into their so-called group. There I was on the very same day at the rooftop. She was standing right next to me. It was the only chance I had to say “hi” and make friends. I could feel that this girl is different from other girl that I’ve known. She seems relaxed. I managed to throw a smile at her though, ended up the day with curious feelings to know more about this girl. I started to talk to Nureen to ask about the girl. She said the name of the girl is Glenda and she’s from Kuching.

Day by day, smile is the only thing I could offer her every time I saw her in class. It seems so hard for me to start a verbal conversation. Somehow later, couple of days before Halloween, I managed to talk to her. Not sure how we started it but I’m glad it happened. We talked about “Spookfest”, an event organized by college. We were planning to find Halloween custom together so I gave her my number. That all about it, we never actually started to contact each other or talk in class again.

Then came Malacca Trip, organized by Culture Class. I was having a fever and flu on that day. I actually started talking with Glenda in the bus when she asked me to take her pictures of her with Athirah and Nureen. I took a picture with her too. The day was hot and dry, everyone has to walk under the sun but the seemed okay with that because they were excited about the trip. I walked alone at the side walk, I needed shadow because I know walking under the hot sun is not helping my situation at all. Glenda came with her pink umbrella. I smiled at her.

Glenda: Hi, Afiq!

Afiq: Hello, Glenda..

Glenda: Are you okay?

Afiq: I’m okay. A bit sick.. I think I got flu.

Glenda: Awhh.. Kesian. Did you take your medicine?

She put the umbrella above me and we walked around from blocks to blocks under her umbrella. I felt secured and cared by a person I just knew for couple of days. I must admit that Glen looks pretty in her dark blue top and her short. I basically spend the whole trip talking to her, getting to know her more. She said that she’s staying nearby and has nothing to do at home. I asked her if she wanna hang out and just chill that night with me and others. She wanted to follow. At first, we thought of watching movie but instead we went for a Shisha in Bidara. It was the first time Glen trying out Shisha and I personally think that she looked cute trying it out. She called me “baby” knowing that im way younger than her. We had a great night.

From that point onward, I started asking her out for a movie and sometimes I just went to pyramid to have a dinner with her after her work hour. I felt protective over her from time to time. I knew that we were something more than just friends but at the same time I know that Glenda already have a boyfriend. I decided to be her friend and friend was what we were.

It took a while for us to realize that we loves each other and it a real love. After making out and all, giving a status of “friend with benefits” to ourselves, I’ve decided that I really love this girl and I want her to be more than just friend. One day, we both felt butterflies in our tummies and I told her that I really love and care for her. The moment was beautiful, how I wish it would last forever.

That moment onward, I know that she is the one that I’m looking for. I want her to be a part of me and I’d be glad to be a part of her. I love you, Glen. You bring joy to my life. I would do anything just to keep those sweet smiles coming. I do think you’re the sweetest and loveliest person I’ve met. Our relationship could blow up the whole universe but I promise you that nobody or nothing will invade our sacred circle of love and happiness. Being around you is all I ever needed. I LOVE YOU, BABY!..

It’s 6 o’clock in the morning and I couldn’t sleep since yesterday, so I decided to post something up on this blog. I waited for my baby the whole day yesterday just to talk to her on the phone. I’ve been missing her since morning but I know she was busy, so I didn’t disturb her much. She came back from hanging out with her friends late at night and called me but she ended up falling asleep on the phone while I was talking about how much I misses her that day. Don’t worry, I’m not mad at you, sayang.. I just want you to know how much I missed you, waiting for you to come back to KL. 9 days till you come back. I know these past few days has been a tough one for me, and you, but we can do this. I want you to hang in there and come back to my side on 15^th February. I’ll wait for you no matter what.

GOODNIGHT, HONEY BEE~

Cheers, TARO.

WHAT-A-DAY!

2010-02-03T01:31:00.000-08:00

today started as un-eventful as any other day in kuching, sent my sis for drums and brought her to take some school photos. on the way home though, i drove using the usual route and at the roundabout i indicated to turn in left. while i was turning in i felt *or actually heard* a 'bump' sound and thought that i hit something. maybe it was a blind spot, but i didn't notice anything out of the ordinary. Grace said it could've been a motorcyclist and he could have just went off :/ so we got home and there's a little dent on the left side of the car now, OMG, how to tell mum & dad???? =.= so dead...

*worried*

anyway, i have so many things to do before i head back to KL...renew my passport *Universal Studios Singapore, baby!!!* get the loan all settled and buy lots of kek lapis to bring back, check on the Compaq laptop that's still in the shop. 2 days to do all these is NOT enough, i'm going to have to wake up extra early tomorrow, seriously :( i need a manicure and pedicure, too...nails looking like shit i feel disgusted...bleughhhhhhhhhh...nanti taro don't want me, hehehehe~

love,
cabbit

Help! I'm Homeless.

2010-02-02T21:16:00.000-08:00

Great news came to my knowledge two days ago. Baby told me that she might change her flight ticket to an earlier one. I was so shocked and happy to know but i didn't put too much hope on it. I've been missing my baby so much. Knowing that she had fun going out with her friends Teresa and Chrislyn and others for Laksa, Karaoke, Bing Cafe and other hang out spot, i know that she will miss Kuching so much cuz she might not go back till next year. Don't be sad kay baby. Taro will teman you everyday if he could and we can try to arrange some mini trips on our own. Not to forget BBQ, camping and more. We'll have our quality time together. I promise. I Love you.

Anyways, 8 days till my birthday and after couple more days it'll be Valentines and Chinese New Year. I'm excited. We're planning to do either BBQ or just hang outs. It's gonna be F.U.N!

Oh I'm at Izwans place right now. I'm so homeless at the moment. hehehe. Ive been here since two days ago for safety reasons. I'm going back to Bangi in a bit though. Can't wait! Even though I'm not quite liking it here at least I get to go out for dinner and shisha with my close friends, Audrey, Izwan and Ahmed.

Got to catch a train now. Later!

Cheers, TARO.

-bleh-

2010-01-29T20:29:00.000-08:00

today is the 7th day of me being held captive (or being exiled, whichever way you interpret it) in Kuching...i've gotta say, some days drag on like there's no tomorrow and other days pass by quite fast. unfortunately i have another 2 weeks of NOT SEEING MY BABY, sigh...this really sucks. getting an earlier flight back to KL is not a problem but that fucker faiz is not captured yet so mum and dad aren't willing to take the risk...

something else has been pulling my spirits down too...found out that taro might be heading back to Jakarta for awhile, i'm guessing it's for his safety too as his parents won't want to leave him alone in Bangi while they're all across the sea. the moment he told me i got totally depressed...is this relationship not meant to be? are we fighting the odds? i don't know but i feel like all these challenges mean the universe is telling us not to be together...sigh, God, help us please. just give us a chance to be together...is that so bad??? the last time he was in Jakarta and i was in Kuching it was super tough and i'm so afraid that this time it'll be just as bad if not worse. i'm just praying for the best now, that's all i can do for now...i'm sick and tired of being pulled apart and pulled down emotionally, all these troubles came from ONE person and i never know one person can cause such catasthrophy!! fuck you, you son of a bitch. i won't even be surprised if you're dad is Satan. SERIOUSLY.

i'm venting all these feelings out coz if i just keep them bottled up inside i'll go crazy. i truly believe that you and i have something worth fighting for, afiq. i know right now being in a relationship shouldn't be too important to us as we're still fighting to get our degrees and masters and title and what not but i think that it's worth the try. we've been through so much shit together already and that bond can't be replaced. if you end up moving to Jakarta for good, i will still treasure our memories and you will always have a place in my heart. ALWAYS. i just want the best for you and if it means KLiUC *wink wink* then it will be AMAZING for us and i shall spam you every weekend, muahahahahahaha...

i love you,
no matter what,
no matter when,
no matter where,
everything doesn't matter when i say i love you.

love,
cabbit

A lil bit memories to be embraced. :)

2010-01-28T21:33:00.000-08:00

If I forget to tell you that forever is what I want,
I hope you will remember that forever is what we have got.
Whether I say these words to you, or wait until you are here with me,
I will show you this forever, and these words will have no need.

If I forget to tell you I am sorry for my mistakes,
I hope that you will remember with every one I make.

If I forget to tell you I want you in my life,

I hope that you will remember that I am always by your side.

If I forget to tell you no other can compare,
I hope that you will remember the love that we both share.

If I forget to tell you that you are my world and more,
I hope that you will remember what I am waiting for.If I forget to tell you I MISS YOU everyday,
I hope that you will remember your absence causes pain..
If I forget to tell you just how much you mean to me,
I hope that you will remember while your not here with me.

Love, TARO.

meow city updates

2010-01-28T20:56:00.000-08:00

the un-fabulous life in kuching city >.< have been meeting up with alisya a lot, she's my bestest buddy from high school whom i share everything with *yes, us girls have LOTS of secrets to tell* she's heading back to London soon though, studying in Limkokwing London...i'm going to miss her so so much. went to her house yesterday, brought her out for lunch. poor girl is coming down with the flu, hope she gets better in time for her monday flight. taro, she says hi to you :D

our favourite hangout spot, bing!

local coffeehouse, serves light meals and have the best ambiance

they currently have 4 outlets in kuching :)

i used to work here in 2008 & 2009

this is a new cafe we went to yesterday, it's called 175 cafe *weird name* and it used to be a coffeehouse, too...the new place is more for casual lunches and snacks. i prefer the old coffeehouse, though...was called Tao and they had very Zen-inspired furnishings and Buddha concept. oh well :( the place is quite pretty, actually. sleek, clean lines dominate the interior, nothing fancy or too over-the-top ^_^ food is only 50-50.

these are my favourite pics of the place, hehehehe...

those stool things are really heavy and they face the fish pond

*you can actually go for fish spa there, just tell the servers*

their whimsical water feature with big bamboo stalks hanging overhead the 'waterfall' >.<

i really miss my baby when looking at this picture...
just brings out an emotion that i can't really place at the moment

i love you, baby

love,

cabbit

Stay.

2010-01-28T18:49:00.000-08:00

17 days and still counting. I miss you baby...

Yesterday, I went to Taylors main campus to meet up with Dato Prof. Dr. Hassan Said, the president of Taylors University College. My appointment was at 12.30 but I had to wait till 12.45 because Dato was having a meeting. I met him and explain about the incompetent lecturer who thought FNBE a business class believed to have failed almost 20 of his students. With the help of Dato' I am hoping for a retest so that I can continue my degree in March not July. The main goal now it to stay in Malaysia. If i miss this chance, I will have to follow my dad back to Jakarta as he is continuing his contract for another 2 years more. I can't bear leaving my baby hanging because of another situational problem. I love you baby. I'll do my best to stay...

Later on that evening, Ahmed fetched me from Taylors and brought me to 3K to swim. It was fun but the thing is only Ahmed and I was there. We called up few friends like zawar, nasir and isa but they didnt turn up at all. I was pretty dissapointed. But not a bit affect having fun with my best buddy, Ahmed. We came at 2 and left the swimming pool at 4. I just wish my baby was there. I really wanna see her in a swimming suit. I bet the cold water will boil immediately when she swims down into the pool, CUZ MY BABY IS SOOO HOT AND SEXY LIKE THAT! :D

Here's some of random picture of Ahmed and I~

Ahmed to the rescue! tadaaa.. :D

After a while trying to save a lil kid drowning...
Ahmed ended up drowning himself. LOL.Cuz Afiq ish fierce likka pirate! Arrrr... ='o

Cheers mate,
TARO.

GUYS/ GAYS DAY OUT!

2010-01-27T09:29:00.001-08:00

Today, I went to Times Square with my younger brother Athir and meet up Ilham and Ahmed. We took a short walk to Bukit Bintang to save money. We saved 4 bucks from the monorail. We went to lecka lecka for shisha but it was too noisy that we couldnt stand it. The place nearby is doing some sort of building construction. So we decided to walk back to Bukit Bintang to shisha. After a few blocks walking, thats when we found DOME. hehehe. :D

BABY, I KNOW YOU MISSED THIS. :P

This video down here is made specialy for you baby. We all misses you. Come back fast and start travelling around the city again with me. I hope you'll like this. I LOVE YOU, SAYANG!~ :)

Cheers, TARO.

tick tock

2010-01-26T10:10:00.000-08:00

the time passes by so slowly,
unearthing the feeling of misery and loneliness,
as the hands of the clock move reluctantly,
tick tock...tick tock...
energy drained, spirit sucked dry,
empty shadows fill the days now,
awaiting the return to life,
is this all? what else is there?
only mere memories remain,
saving me from the mundane abyss,
till i see you again,
tick tock...tick tock...

love,
cabbit

3rd Day and Still Counting

2010-01-26T07:31:00.000-08:00

RANDOMNESS FILLED THE 3rd NIGHT.
I LOVE YOU BABY! MWAHHH! :D
HERE ARE SOME RANDOM STUFF WE DID ON MSN:

Cheers, TARO. :)

Collection Begins and Putrajaya Day Out

2010-01-25T10:02:00.000-08:00

I wanted this to be a secret but my baby said she really want to see what I am collecting so far. I've started with something simple and not so pricey. 2 cute key chains and a pretty bracelet. Thought that my baby would like it. Hehehe. Valentine's coming and I really hope I get to celebrate it with my baby even though its going to be a belated one. I want my baby to know that I love her so much. 21 days left and still counting! We are still strong and we can do this. I was a bit moody today and my baby realize that well. Kesian asyik kena ignore jak. Hehe. Im sorry baby, I really wasn't feel like talking to anyone at all at that time. I had my time thinking and rejuvenating and I'm all better now. We had a good talk tonight but something wrong with the operator, wont letting us call each other. Sigh. Damn sad cuz we only talked for 15 minutes. Give us back our 45 minutes. Damn you hotlink! :0

OHH! Baby looky loookyy! It's all yours. :D

A day out in putrajaya. Wish my baby was there. Promise that ill bring you next time kay, honey bee!~ :)

Cheers, TARO. :)

2ND DAY

2010-01-25T03:26:00.000-08:00

it's only my second day back and already i feel the mundane settings of everyday life sink in, pulling me into a deep hole of nothing-ness and the evanescene of fun is torturing. i'm expecting to be whisked away in exactly 3 weeks! so so so can't wait for that :D meanwhile...

everyday i think about my love...

*isn't he gorgeous?*
i think he's really sexy :p

on a brigther note, i went for lunch with ali at bing! this afternoon ^_^ it's been a long time since i hung out with her so it was really great to just chill. it was pouring cats & dogs in kuching but good thing mum let me drive the Xtrail~ yeah, tiny girl with huge car! *muahahahahaha* headed to Spring after that to look for some heels and found out the new iPod nano has been out for over a month already...need to get me one of those *hint hint, afiq!* hehehehe...

enough ramblings for now~

love,

cabbit

Baby, look what I've found on my phone. :D

2010-01-24T17:56:00.000-08:00

I woke up early today to fetch my siblings to school. I missed my baby so much this morning and i straight away called her, she was sleeping. Kesian my baby so tired. LOL. I found some of her pictures on my blackberry which I took and decided to edit and post it on this blog. I even found a lot of videos that we made together.

p/s: Baby, I love you so much.

Love, TARO.

I MISS YOU

2010-01-24T06:37:00.000-08:00

yeah, you know we look good

>.<

love you, honey bee!

love,

cabbit

DOWN.

2010-01-23T20:39:00.000-08:00

My baby is leaving on a plane to Kuching in a couple of hours from now. I'm feeling terribly sad! :(

Siiiiiggggggggghhhhhhh!!!
23 DAYS! :((
What am I gonna do when she was away? I meet her almost everyday. We traveled, kissed and we've been through a lot of problems and happy moments together. Im feeling homesick now. MUAL! :S I NEED YOU HERE BABY.

I'm worried about everything. I know my aby well, she's too friendly and always take YES as an swer. I dont want people to take advantage of her. If anything bad happen to my baby, I wont forgive myself for not being there when she needs me. I hope she wont meet Chary or some other guys who have crushes on her. Im being territorial. LOL.

I REALLY WISH MY BABY COULD STAY. I'M HAVING A SERIOUS BREAKDOWN SINCE THIS MORNING. TRIED TO CALM DOWN BY GOING ONLINE AND WATCHING TV. I WANTED TO TALK TO MY BABY BUT I DONT WANNA DISTURB HER PACKING UP HER STUFF. I'M JUST WAITING FOR HER CALL NOW.

Baby I hope you will have a safe and pleasant stay in Kuching, Sarawak. Just remember that I LOVE YOU so much and I PROMISE you that no girl shall approach me within the space and proxemic that only you can invade. I PROMISE. ;)

Love, TARO.

hard to say goodbye

2010-01-23T09:07:00.000-08:00

baby, i'm leaving today...it kills me to have to leave you for 23 days :( but this is situational and we both know it's for our own good. i hope that these bumps along the way will get less and less, we're strong but we need to create our happy moments now...enough with problems already, I JUST WANT TO BE WITH MY HAMTARO *pout*

just want to let you know that this relationship has taught me to really be rational and realistic in expectations 'cause no one's life is perfect and shortcomings shouldn't always be viewed negatively. i feel that in these 2 months we have learned a lot from each other day and grew up emotionally :)

this is a short message, i don't want to start crying in front of the laptop =.= please know that i love you so so much and even though i've only been with you for a short while i feel like i've known you for so long. all the KTM rides, the shisha, the LRT's and Monorails...sweet memories that can never be replaced.

I LOVE YOU, AFIQ....my fiqalicious, fiqozawa, hamtaro, baby, sayang!

till we meet again...

love,
cabbit

Kelinci (Rabbit)

2010-01-20T05:33:00.000-08:00

Baby, look what I've found! mwahahaha. :D

Definitions of rabbit on the Web:

-any of various burrowing animals of the family Leporidae having long ears and short tails; some domesticated and raised for pets or food

Would you care for a cup of rabbit?~

Shooo cuteeeeeee!! \^__^/

I LOVE MY CABBIT, GLEN! SO SO SO MUCHH!! :D

Love, TARO.

random day @ KLCC

2010-01-18T07:26:00.000-08:00

went for a short date with taro today :D it was super random, we were texting around lunch time and i was extremely bored so he said 'meet you at Sentral, 5pm'...JUST LIKE THAT >.< decided on KLCC to just hang out there, see anything new or interesting going on...actually i'm not sure why i wanted to go to KLCC, i guess i haven't been there in a while and just wanted to check out the place.

bought some buns at the bakery and headed for the park for a little chat, it was very fun! there was a cute little middle eastern girl (maybe 1 or 2 years old) who attracted the attention of 2 female Chinese tourists and it was pretty entertaining to watch their interaction ^___^ after a few minutes the fountains went on and we had a great water show going on...hehehe...

got tired of sitting around so we headed indoors and i went to Quiksilver/Roxy to pick up my birthday voucher *SHOPPING!!!* and the cashier actually knew how to speak Sarawak Malay! OMG :p hahahaha, it's like the invasion of sarawakians and our culture/language (even taro is learning to speak)...oh, also checked out the Saosin tickets at Rock Corner...hrm, rm102 for tickets on presale, where can i get that kind of money?? but it would be so great to go :) baby tickled me and teased me the whole time we were at the mall, making me laugh so loud and become so hyper! LMAO, taro is super duper L-E-M-A-U.....we even made videos and took pictures, but it was a bit dark already so not very clear...

because we're such good kids, we actually headed to the train station pretty early around 9pm and had dinner there. i managed to catch the 9.50pm train back but taro had to wait a lil longer (sorry, baby) for his train heading to seremban. we're both home safe now and i'm missing him a lot, a lot, a lot!

today was EXTREMELY fun! even though at the beginning we found out some stuff about a 'friend' that shocked and pissed us, we still manage to enjoy some quality time together. sure, dating in a mall is lame, but hey, we went to the park too :) i love you, honey bee....

ciao,
cabbit

namesake

2010-01-18T07:06:00.000-08:00

pocketful of DELIBERATE accident.
this is EXACTLY it.
no one is really trustworthy now.
trust and believe only in YOURSELF.

when the time comes, we will know who our real friends are...

cabbit

2010-01-17T22:12:00.000-08:00

missing my super cute hamtaro right now...

love,
cabbit

Makdek in Bangi! (=

2010-01-17T09:06:00.002-08:00

It 17th January and it's a big day. My awesome smoshome aunty came from Kelantan today and i had to fetch her at the terminal. So i drove all the way to Terminal 10, place where she was drop off. She came with my cousin Achik, she just finished SPM and had nothing to do at home so came and pay a visit to KL.

What did I do today, basically just stay at home, eat and sleep. I had to photocopy my o-levels and foundation's result to be sent to my new college, KLIUC for a verification process. Its a part of their requirements.

I texted my baby a lot of times and tried to talk to her on the phone today but she seems a bit moody today so i was a bit worried. She went out to meet Cassandra tonight though. Id ask her to stay at home but I dont wanna be selfish. I would do ANYTHING to keep her happy.

So, I'm just waiting for her to come back now and I'm going to call her soon. MISS MY BABY GLEN SOOO MUCH! :)

LOVE, TARO.

b-o-r-e-d-o-m

2010-01-17T05:03:00.000-08:00

i spent the whole day at home today (unsuccessfully, mind you) and was bored (wait, actually still am) out of my mind. got upset at greg for finishing my big bottle of coke all by himself =.= and locked myself in the room...lol, so childish!

taro called a few times today but i kept falling asleep and didn't talk much. i'm sorry, baby, i din't mean to waste your time and credit like that *hugs* i love you so so much! his aunt is coming over to babysit this week since his parents are going to be in jakarta...........HOME ALONE! er, maybe not >.<

was going through my pictures on facebook since all my pictures from laptop got deleted during reformatting few months before *bleurgh* and found this...

ivan did this for me during rainforest 2008, if i'm not mistaken. sigh...i miss those days in kuching where everything was so easy. being at home wasn't stressful and you just have the whole day/week/month stretched out in front you with no worries...

this year's rainforest world music festival will be held 9-11 July 2010 @ SCV and i'm hoping to drag taro along *evil laugh* cause i know it will be so much fun! i might go home in april, there's a 2 week break. escape the madness and boredom that is KL and get back to my chilled out roots for a little while :)

love,
cabbit

Talk back gets slap.

2010-01-16T21:35:00.000-08:00

Sometimes, life is so unfair. I dont normally get what I want. My life is just a tragic stories playing over and over again. I just feel like dying each of single passing days.. Okay, cut the emo talk...

What happened?

After I came back from a date with my baby in KL, I was having a good time talking to my dad about his achievement and he even showed 4 medals he got today from the Royalties. When i logged out of facebook and MSN, my mom started to do a daily "typical malay mom" would do... BERLETER.. (finding my mistake and telling me what i dont need know.) I talked back saying, "it's not even my fault and not related to me" in a lazy tone, got up and just left. My dad who took it as a disrespectful behaviour called me when I was about to enter my room.

"What did you just say?" He grabs a thick book and smacked it on my face. My ears was hurt.. "Why are you so disrespectful towards your mom?" Another one landed on the other side of my face... His eyes was red, I don't think he know what he was doing. I didnt cry, i held it. I didnt wanna show my weakness. Then come another one, last one was pretty hard too. "Don't be rude to me and your mom" I stared into his eyes, shocked and speechless. He never layed his hand on me since 12 years ago, when I was a kid. I am 19 now, in an adult stage. He could have just sit on the same table with me and discuss about it, but no...emotion controlled him... I apologized to mom and dad zero hearted cuz i dont want to make things even worst, cuz i know that was the best solution for this situation.

So I cried and cried and cried.. broken hearted, betrayed of this unexpected and unfortunate event. :( Until my baby called.. She showed me the best solution for my problem. She said that she was once like me and she really understands me. I felt better after 2 hours conversation on the phone. Thanks baby for being there when i needed you the most. I love you.

My relationship with dad WAS pretty good, we communicated well..even when he was outside of the country. I supported him in everything he did and I know that I am the most reliable, matured and the most responsible person in the house among my siblings.

BUT TODAY...
I DONT THINK I KNOW HIM ANYMORE.

Cheers, Taro.

Expensive day, precious time!

2010-01-16T06:47:00.000-08:00

It's the weekend! LOL. I woke up around 7 AM today 'cause i needed to send my younger brother to school. My dad came back from Jakarta yesterday night and he's going back tomorrow morning. I don't see the point of him coming back. He said he's going to get a medal from the king or something. SWTS.. -___-"

My baby went to help with the orientation of the freshies today. She finished at 1 and I managed to arrive at the college by 2. There I met Ahmed and my baby Glen. Missed her so much! :) Bought a KTM ticket but departure of the train was CANCELLED TWICE. At first was alright but then the second train came.. The train was sooooo FULL. Me and my baby was like, WHAT THE FUCK! Damn pissed. We chowed and took a cab to LRT.

Reached KL Sentral at 5PM and took Monorail to Bukit Bintang. We both sits behind the control room. Having to sit at KTM station for almost 2 hours without doing anything was stupid and spoiled our mood for today, but my baby always cheer me up. mek sayang kitak :)

We reached BB and went to Lecka-Lecka for a shisha. It was beside the road facing Pavilion and a lot of sports car pass by. We were so distracted! hehe. A lot of Honda Civic Ferio passed by too. :D

At night, we went around BB and bought an icecream, strawberry+choc chips. It was sooooo nice! I love great food. hehe. We saw a bunch of teenagers performing a street dance. It was awesome. My baby said it was her first time seeing that kind of stuff in BB. LOL.

Had a cup of MILO ICE and went home using KTM.
ANOTHER GREAT DAY!

CHEERS, TARO.

BOO!

2010-01-15T09:05:00.000-08:00

hello marshmallow, didn't do anything much today. had a meeting with classmates @ McD (of all places) to discuss our programme for the freshies...and i have to wake up freaking early! gotta be at taylors by 7am =.= OMG! then headed out for dinner and shisha with them boys but i didn't feel so well, got home early before 10pm and felt a bit sick......then.........BABY CALLED! yay~~ the best part of the day is always when he calls :D 'cause i miss him so so much and i feel so much better hearing his voice.

we had a little tiff again today, he wasn't too happy about me hanging out with the guys and i guess i didn't put myself in his shoes. it's always a situational problem and the classmates i hang out with aren't the type we usually like, it's more of a survival thing. baby, i'm sorry for hurting you today...you know i never want to see you sad or frustrated, i will make it up to you soon *hugs* i hope we get to meet up tomorrow after the orientation programme, i really need to be with him and make sure everything's ok :)

~he's my angel~

love,
cabbit

Something to let go..

2010-01-14T11:40:00.000-08:00

Thanks baby for the nice photo manipulation. We just had a small argument tonight and its because she shared stuff about religion and i get all sensitive. I just realize that my thinking is as narrow as my sixth guitar string. Its stupid. My baby tried to share with me and sharing is suppose to be a goodthing. Cuz we shared stuff, I mean we shared everything. I need to try and be more open. I reacted all weird tonight probably because I'm too tired. I need to get some rest and apologize to my baby cuz i think i hurted her quiet bad tonight. I didnt meet her expectation of me, her bf, to be an open minded person who can share EVERYTHING with her.

I'M SORRY BABY.
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.
I promise ill be a better person once you wake up tomorrow.
Sweet dream, baby...

I want our good moment to last forever...

...and I'd do anything to keep that sweet smile coming. :)

Love, Taro.

2010-01-14T11:22:00.000-08:00

love,
cabbit

when we're out!

2010-01-13T05:46:00.000-08:00

so pretty~~

bestest buddy ahmed doing his thing, y'all!

*taro suka makan lollies*

faiz is so passionate about his song!

at templer station catching a ride to town
*cowboy town station, seriously...can see dust balls but no life form, LOL*

our very dependable ride *most of the time*
>.<

stuff i drew and taro painted over :D

his name
=.=

project runway wannabe ^^

love,
cabbit

Train is for cool people. by Afiq

2010-01-13T04:45:00.000-08:00

First of all thank baby for hacking into my account and being super-sweet. I almost got diabetes, thanks to you! :P

12th of January

10AM, I went to KL sentral to meet my baby and Ahmed. It was a last minute plan and we were bored at home. So came the brilliant idea to meet everyone at KL sentral and go around KL using monorail. We had a Snack Plate at the KFC for our brunch except Ahmed just drank a cup of hot MILO. Ilham was suppose to meet us up at the Sentral but he had to deal with house moving and stuff at home.

Ahmed and baby Glen being silly. LOL.

Ahmed and I with idk what kind of pose is that.

1PM, Ahmed, Glen and I went to Pavillion to chill there. Ahmed took this chance to find a job.

4PM, Glen and I rushed to KL sentral to fetch Ilham who panic when he missed a station. Went all the way to Kerinchi instead of dropping at KL Sentral. It was his first time travelling alone with train. Hehe. Such a good lesson for him. ;)

5PM, arrived at Bukit Bintang for a nice evening walk. Went to Pavi to fetch Ahmed. He was getting interviewed at Ogawa for a job. The shop offered a worker of 1.5k-2.5k. Thats like so fucking loads of money. :0

8PM, Shishaing at Bukit Bintang. Its a really nice place. Peaceful and the waiters are nice. Made friend with the phillipino waiter. LOL. We shared stuff, Ilham even share with us his problems about his GF, Dina. So we tried to calm him down by givin advice. His situational problem is common and it happens.

My baby and I. <3>

Ilham and Ahmed chillin at the sidewalk shisha.

10PM, Finished shishaing and head back home with KTM. Train is for cool people, that is. :)

Cheers, Afiq.

FLIPSIDE! by Glen

2010-01-13T04:21:00.000-08:00

wheeee...first time posting on fiqalicious's blog ^___^ not a very good blogger but it's ok, we can slowly learn no problem.........met afiq in college, thought he was with nureen (everyone said so) and let it be........

then came melaka >.<

picture a bit blur but never mind-lah, hehehe...

then everything started to change.....feelings develop, common interests were found...sparks flew here and there and.......now we are together :D

this past month was very tough on us, especially him, i put a lot of stress on him when i was away. but my honey bee is so cool that he waited and waited and waited and gave me space (THANK YOU so much for being patient) and gave us a chance to be together...

since it's my first post, no need to overload with info okay....i love my baby so much and would do anything for him...SERIOUSLY (including waiting for train and walking home from train station, YES) ^^

ciao for now~
cabbit

Painting day! by Afiq

2010-01-11T18:50:00.000-08:00

So yesterday, Glen came to my place and we had a great quality time together. We spent the day by drawing and panting in my room. With the sexy Altec Lansing on, we painted a lot of weird painting but it looks good.

AND, a lot of cam-whoring, cuz my baby is so LEMAU like that... :P :P

G & A, 11 Jan '10

Cheers~ >.<

Afiq J.

New year, new chapter. by Afiq

2010-01-09T03:55:00.000-08:00

The Whole New Chapter.

Remembering 2009, embracing 2010. There were so much things happened in 2009. Sweet and bitter memories mixed together. So much problems appeared at the end of December too. Problems after problems. I was hoping things to get better and better..// I managed to move on from my past love life, Mia. I fell for someone and shes different from every typical girl ive ever met. She's matured, a thinker, a traveller, smart and a good kisser.

Meet my bunny, Glen. ;)

It's the NEW YEAR'S EVE!

1st January, I celebrates the 2010 new year with 2 of my closest friend, Faiz Bear and Ahmed Kumayl. We had a great time at the curve. Though playing with foam snow spray is a typical new year celebration routine, it was fun. I one thing that is missing, my baby Glen. I really wish she was here but she was celebrating the new year in Sarawak and a lot of thing happened, tested my patient. I missed her so much.

4th January, my baby's birthday! A sad day for me, i still couldnt see her face to face. I wished her in advance though. She was out with her friends drinking and having fun, WITHOUT ME. (ROAR! :E) LOL. Ended up hung over the next day till evening.

5th January, my baby Glen came back! I was so happy that I made a trip to Subang with Aiman, Amed and Nasir. We met her but she wasnt in the mood prolly cuz she just landed and her ex was in the town. Putting that aside, my best friend almost got killed by his step dad because of misunderstanding and he was seriously injured, bone fractured. His step dad got jailed for 7 days.

6th January, his step dad got out tied, RM 40,000, guarenteed by someone. I helped him move out of the house for safety reasons. It was a tiring day.

7th January, I finally met my kelinci. She came to Bangi to spend time with me. I missed your kiss baby. LOL. Thanks for the lada Sarawak. We went to MidValley on that evening. It was a fine day. :)

A kiss for my baby. <3

8th January, I went to the art house gellery in central market to see a solo exhibition with my baby, called Winter Solstice by a great artist, Richard Wong. We went to Bukit Bintang to shisha there afterwards. Another great quality time. Missing you, baby.

9th January, what a boring day at home. I was planning to go out with Kina, my old buddy in Bangi for a lunch but i thought its kinda inappropriate to go out with another girl alone. Made and excuse to cancel the plan and she understood well my situation. Later that night, went out with Faiz and my Baby to KL for a good shisha time. We conversed about a lot of things and thats when Sherlin Yeoh, a best friend appeared. We're planning to hang out with her when she came back from Seremban.

10th January, woke up at 12 o'clock. Watched the telly the whole afternoon and had a piece of burger. I'm not gonna meet my baby today cuz we planned to stay at home, do chores and be good kids. xD Miss you baby.

Afiq's reporting. Beep! ;)